Well, I've done it now. After a week and a half of fasting, and 4 days of healthy eating, I've just eaten a whole easter egg. I feel like a fat idiot. That chocolate is going to cling to me like a damn limpet now, and there isn't a thing I can do about it.

I want to hide under a big man-jumper and not eat until that chocolate weight gives up and disappears again. Apologies for the sudden negativity, but I can't believe how dreadful an easter egg has made me feel. A whole easter egg! What was I thinking?! I want to cry :(

How can 200grams of chocolate make me feel like this? I will be ugly and fat and undeserving of love from anyone. Don't pity me, hate me. It's probably easier on my now tortured (and now certainly fat) soul. I've just repulsed myself entirely. Where was my iron will ten minutes ago?

I have to go and work tomorrow in this state of mind.

UGH.

Self-involved.