On various topics...

On finding a career:

I know what I've got to do, and after half term it will be done.


On trust:

It is difficult at the moment, living in a house from which all trust and truth has been purged, and where all security is up for question and under threat. But faith is the opposite of fear.

On Project Acceptance:

It's going well. I've gained a pound, lost a pound, gained a pound, lost 1/4 of a pound...and so on. I stay away from sugar, white flour and processed foods. Foods that I have not prepared with my own precise hands are out, and I've been baking (yes, baking!). Time and scales will tell.

(Controversy-alert) On Pro-Ana:

I do MISS it. I shouldn't. And why do I miss it? Is it the sense that there are other people - both online and in real life - as disordered as me? Is it the penchant for self-destrution in me that acts out, that needs an outlet? Do I miss having goals? I vote yes to all, and then some. But eating more healthily does feel good. I must refer back to an earlier post where I suggested that, as a person so accustomed to having 'issues' (ugh) and acting in a disordered fashion, to do things sanely and routinely feels...well...weird.

On The Boy:

We're going away today, for 4 days together. It's the first time I've done anything like this with someone I've been 'with'. Exciting, new and unfamiliar territory. WOO!

Til I return,

Princess